I smelt it today. That smell. Your smell. It reminded me of you. And us. And that time in the shower. The time that seemed to last forever yet was gone in a second. The time that when i think back on, still makes me smile. I smell it, and smile in nostalgia.
Downward side up, I toss and I turn.
Although the flame is now an ember; my bed still lay cold, cold as dry ice.
Days like this I use the white bar of soap, and the hottest of temperature; nothing else could do the job just.
From top to bottom.
I no longer knw which way is north.
Guess its wise to head east for the summer. At least for now.
I will accept your offer of samples, most likely all of them. I have no intentions of buying anything. Also, if you fall in love with me I probably loved you first but when you love me I will probably push you away cuz it’s too late. Until you don’t love me anymore then I’ll realize the mistakes I’ve made. And this pack of cigarettes? I intend on smoking them one after another until this pack is gone as soon as I step away and find a comfortable place to sit. My life is lonely and I’m ok with it.
But in all honesty. I’m not.
Some hurt, pain, and anger. I was beginning to not feel like my normal self. Phew. That was a close one.
But I’m pretty sure boxers make people cooler. Kind of like smoking and drugs. Every time I wear them, I feel like a badass. Just saying.
Always thought things would be different at this age. But at this point I’ve learned to accept disappointment, it’s inevitable. Don’t set expectations in people because, no matter what you will be disappointed. No matter the relationship, friendship, acquaintanceship, people will always let you down, even the ones made to stand by you. After awhile it doesn’t even come to a surprise or shock; you come to just expect it and accept it.
You stand alone, the same way you die.
